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December 2008
SEE YA 2008, HELLO 2009
I started my resolutions yesterday…..
So this year I have opened and closed chapters in my book of life. I have had life altering occurrences, and I have gone through hard times. Who has not?
I have gained a lot as well. I have a new career, where I have met several wonderful people. All with totally different personalities. (Never a dull moment!!!) My son is officially potty trained. I have fallen in love and out. I have had several changes in 08’.
So this year I have taken initiative to start my resolutions early.
2009 holds a lot of big changes for Landon and I. My first item of business is to quit smoking! ( I know I hear you boo birds =-) ) It’s a bad habit and I am going to kick it to the curb. I am done!
My second order of business is to move out of my parents. I pay rent to live here, but it is time I get out. This is going to be a total step of faith for me. I will be gaining independency, but loosing security. It is very bitter sweet. I have lived out in the world by myself before and it is hard to make it. I know it is time to get out though.
This is the time of the year where everyone grabs a mirror. What can I change??? Habits, Lifestyles or Everything? My motto is “ Just Be You”.
My challenge to you is forget the past year, don’t live in the past. Just remember what it taught you for the future. Keep all your fond memories close and the bad memories far away.
I am just changing my bad habit. I am going to stick to my guns on this one.
What are your goals? Any resolutitons you would like to share??????
Oh FYI 5 more months until swim suit season…………
Have a blessed week everyone……….
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SUNDAY FUNDAY!!!!
Sunday Funk and Dating in Waco….………..
So yesterday I must confess I was in quite a funk per say. I have not been out of the house besides to go to work and eat with Landon. I called my girlfriends up for a little Mommy Sunday Funday! I asked Alicia and Jessica to go out with me. I had two hours to kill while Landon was down for his nap and needed some Mommy time before the week started. It took some hardcore selling for me to get her and Jessica to get out.
They finally gave in and off we were. So we were going to George’s to watch the football game and they ended up to be closed. (Do not get me started on Romo.) So we set off to numerous locations around town. We did not have a specific place to go. We ended up having a blast before it was all said and done.
So thank you to my to wonderful girlfriends for getting me out of my funk.
Being a mother get so exhausting. It is great, but at times you can get so bogged down from life in general. I am 22 and sometimes I feel dead, like I have no life. I know this is not true, but responsibility can take a lot out of you. Sometimes it is just nice to get out.
I am refreshed and ready for work this week, I am thankful for my friends. They are always there for me when I need them. A lot of my friends are getting married or engaged. They are always trying to set me up.
So to my friends thank you so much for you help! I do not think I am ready to go on another blind date again. Thanks to my old friend Jody. She set me up once LOL! Went and had Whataburger for lunch with this guy. I paid! He was not “Prince Charming“! I gave up on Charming, but if anyone has seen “Prince Normal“, send him my way!
So good luck to anyone in a funk today! Get up and get your friends to go have lunch. Oh, and by the way HAPPY BIRTHDAY JODY!!!!!
Have a Blessed Day!
FooFighters
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Santa unloads the toys at my house
A Christmas Story………..Stay blessed
Christmas Eve I laid in bed reliving the day’s events. I was watching “A Christmas Story” as I did this. My family did Christmas dinner yesterday due to the fact we have family who live out of town. This meant a house full of people and little children. It was hectic, blissful, and wonderful all at the same time. I was smart I took two Tylenol as soon as I got home from work.
We took the boys outside to look at all the Christmas lights, and talked about the visitor we had coming through the chimney. The look on their faces, so innocent, like little animated characters.
Christmas morning came and went so fast. Landon received all of his presents from Santa. ( He really liked his Polaris and drums the best. )
I feel really blessed we all had a wonderful time. I am really blessed and so is my son. This time of the season people are always in a hurry. They always have a great warm hearted attitude in the midst of it though. Well most people do.
My one wish is that people could keep their hearts open all year long. Love, get excited, do good deeds and mainly love. We all have our best intentions hat on this time of the year. I challenge you to keep it on all year long!
When life knocks you down get back up. When it throws a stepping stone out there step on it and keep on walking. People really need to keep the CHRISTmas spirit all year long.
I hope everyone had an amazing Christmas. I pray it was filled with many blessings.
Have a Blessed Weekend Everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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PS I Love You
Chick Flicks……makes you really think…..
I watched “PS I Love You” this weekend. The movie is about a man passing away and leaving his wife messages to encourage her to move on with life.
I was talking to one of my divorced friend’s about her split up with her ex not to long ago. We were talking about the emotional rollercoaster you go through. You think you love someone so much and know their heart so well. It is a slap to the face and a dagger to the heart when you break up.
It is kind of like they died . You go through a mourning process. The pain and emptiness is so intense, like a part of you dies.
The good news, there is life, love, and laughter again. I’d say about a year after is about normal to be healed. At least for me, everyone is different. Some are stronger the others.
I will say this going to church and having Christian friends have made me strong and help immensely. I have found my faith in people again. I still have a wall, but I believe this is a good thing.
The point is I have a lot of people in my life struggling right now as far as loss and loneliness. I know what that feels like. There is and end to the hurt though. I can promise anyone that. I have met many people in similar situations as mine, even worse ones. Everyone has their story. I think if people just had the faith restored everything would be a lot better for them.
So have faith, love with all of your heart, and never look back. What happens will only make you stronger. What does not happen will only make you wiser. Everyday the sun is shining through your curtains be thankful. God has blessed you with another day.
Have a Blessed day everyone!
Eric Clapton
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Buzz Kill and Foggy nights
No pun intended…
So we have had it planned to go see the lights in Belton for a while now. Good Old Texas weather never seems to let me down though. I called my mom on my way home and asked her if they were still wanting to go. As everyone could tell it was foggy all day.
We departed from the house to take Landon to meet his ideal. (Whom I am terrified of! Something about an unknown man in a suit.) Yes none other then the big man himself “Santa Floss ” (As Landon calls him.)
Well as fate and TEXAS WEATHER would have it we got about 10 minutes out and decided to turn around. It was to bad to take the chance. Therefore what a buzz kill! I was so anxious to take him and experience the lights along with the adrenaline rush of all the Christmas joy. Not to mention, they have wonderful hot chocolate!
We have reschedule this trip to say the least. Better to be safe then sorry! So for now he will have to enjoy the lights that you wonderful Wacoans have put your hard work into! We greatly appreciate it! So thank you!
Have a very Blessed day all!
Love this song to cute!
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For Landon
I found this last night when I was going through scrapbooks. This is a poem I wrote for Landon when I was 7 months pregnant. I turned this into a song when he was first born, this will put him to sleep quickly when I sing it to him. (Maybe he just pretends to be asleep so I will stop singing LOL)
Mama’s Boy!
God doesn’t make mistakes, people do, but not he. So I know this little boy inside of me, was meant to be. No matter what happens, in life good or bad. Landon Tyler I can be both your mom and dad.
When you cry to you I will run, In our home we will play hide-n-seek it will be fun. On your first day of school I will cry When your face wet with tears I will dry.
Your God’s angel he has sent to me, Your eyes will be blue oh so heavenly. The twinkle in you little smile. Will make these 9 months all worth while.
So if you ever have a doubt. Don’t whine, don’t put. Either shy, outgoing, or coy. Landon Tyler you will always be mama little boy.
I will teach you how to hunt and fish. How on the first star of the night to make a wish. I can even teach how to play sports. How not to lick a frog or you will get warts!
I will teach you your ABC’s I can even teach you your 123’s. But no matter what life give us Ty. It will always be just you and I.
You’re my baby boy. My heart, soul, and joy. I’ll love you with all of my heart. I knew it from the very start!
No matter if you get in a jam. No matter if you cant find the way out My little son have no doubt Because whether you like it or not you will always be Mama’s Little Boy!
10/5/05
Creed
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My way to chill out…….
I must confess………..I bought a Taylor Swift CD
This weekend Landon and I had it all to ourselves. We went shopping all around Waco for Christmas presents. Then we went to my Grandma’s and hung out with them. Lastly, we went to a Birthday party!
We had a great weekend just the two of us.
Sometimes when I have had a stressful week in general, I put Landon in the car and we go driving. Saturday was a beautiful day to go driving. So in between all of the running around we took off to my Hometown and rode around to a new CD I purchased.
As a mother (single or not) and as a woman, I seem to feel the need for an internal makeover every once and a while. Especially during the Holidays and all the to do list. You see your list back up, along with the laundry tickling the ceiling.
It is easy to get discouraged.
So this is my way of taking the pressures off and Landon’s way of taking a nap.
The trees on the side of the roads looked liked they were bowing over just for the cars that drove by. The red and brown leaves whirling around in the streets as if they were playing tag. The wind so strong and mighty helping blow away the stress that seemed to be creeping on my shoulders.
This is a way for me to relax. Especially before going to a Birthday Party! Which we really enjoyed!
How do other people take the pressures of the world off??
Have a Blessed Day all!
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Sticks & stones may break my bones, but your words will never hurt me.
First and foremost I am broaching the subject only because of the sheer number and hateful recent comments on my blog. I am being personally attacked and this is not the appropriate forum for this type of interaction.
I had to pray about this before I wrote it.
I feel like everyday there is someone to put me down. That’s life. When the world pushes you down you are in the perfect position to pray.
Everyone has their own opinions about how the past was written. Who was wrong who was right. None of this matters. I am not perfect and neither was my past. I know this you do not have to point it out nor dwell on this.
I do know one thing….. God always has his Will for us and our pathways. I should have turned right sometimes, but went left.
Lately I have received a lot of personal attacks on me and my past with my ex, and decisions that were made. I just want to say this. I know that people are missing out on Landon’s life and I am terribly sorry for this. None of us can un write what has already been written.
What is done is done lets leave the trash in the trashcan.
I would not change anything. My son has saved my life and gave it meaning. The only one I have to answer to is God.
Please keep in mind I am doing this to have a place for parents in general to connect.
PLEASE NOTE Any further personal attacks that are off topic will be removed.
Maybe one day people can have eachothers backs and empower eachother instead of knocking them down.
Waiting on the world to change
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Santa by the popsicles?
How to explain the exact coordinates of the North Pole?
So Landon will be 3 in January. This is his 3rd Christmas. The first Christmas we helped him unwrap his presents. The second year we kept him form unwrapping the presents to early.
This year he just looks at the Lighting McQueen wrapped presents and admires them from an ever so tempting distance.
The other night I was telling him how Santa has a workshop in the North Pole. He gave me a puzzled perplexed look. Those long eyelashes batted at me so innocently.
When bed time came around he said something about Santa and the North Pole. I tried explaining Santa lives in the cold. So he pondered on the information for just a brief moment. It was like a light bulb went off in his head.
“By the popsicles?” he exclaimed.
It is such a special, warm fuzzy feeling time of the year for children of all ages. I just hope I can make it as wonderful for him as my parents did for us growing up.
I need to practice on the Santa act. Any ideas and help would be amazing! How do you explain this Classic Red Figure to children without taking away what this Season is really all about. The birth of Christ. I have told him it was like a big birthday party for Jesus. I must remind myself he is only 3.
He knows his songs such as, Silent Night, Away in a Manger, Santa Claus is Coming to Town, and his favorite is Jingle Bells.
Tonight we are making our snow cookies and I am taking him to admire all the beautiful lights around town. (So thank you if you have Christmas Lights up) Yesterday a friend introduced me to apple cider so I had to go buy some for Landon to try out.
Maybe next year I will have this down to a precise science. Merry Christmas to all!!! Remember you better watch out, Santa Claus is coming to Town. =-)
In memory of you Nai………
A little off subject of Baby Mamas and ect. In memory of Renee Alyse Anderson 12.11.85 - 04.19.08
Throughout life you meet amazing people. Today would be my amazing, beautiful, caring, friend’s Birthday. She would be 23. Renee past away in April. I have lost a lot of friends, but when I lost her it was more like loosing a soul sister. Some one who could make you laugh when you wanted to cry, some one who could make you cry from laughing so hard.
Renee had numerous friends, and was always there no matter what. If you did not like it she would tell you to kick Rocks! She had a giving heart that was open to anyone. Never judged class, race, or style. She just loved all. She was like a soul sister, we fought, but we always made up.
I knew Renee since we were 5. I do not think she ever changed who she was. She was a spitfire, energetic, just a wonderful fun person. With her contagious laugh that would just make you feel like your problems were not big at all. I have many wonderful memories with her. I miss her dearly and still deal with her lost everyday. I still can not look at my room and not think of her. She was my welcoming committee when I came back from Chicago. My room still has the homecoming mum up that she hung so very long ago, along with the dream catcher.
I can not say or explain how much my friends and I miss this chick. I posted something below that another Bestie wrote about her.
If any one would like to share how they deal with lost of friends when they are so young they may do so.
Me in Nai after one of our many Walmart trips last November
In loving memory of Renee Alyse from Teranee
I’ve been reminiscing a lot here lately especially with your birthday today and the memories that I have are the best !! We never had a dull moment and loved every moment of it. I laugh about all the many times we had, especially our night out in Killeen. You, Ericka and myself decided it was the absolutely best girls night out ever. And all the trouble we gave Duck, he used to always say he felt like he was dating both of us and your reply was well we’re a package deal !!
We were always together and knew everything about each other you were my bestie and I miss everything about you. I can still here your voice and that laugh so well, like that time we went to Austin so that we could move you out.. of course all we did was supervise but when we were about to leave I went to get the basket on the balcony and ran straight into the sliding glass door !! I thought it was open and I have never seen anyone laugh so hard, we laughed until we cried ! That laugh and smile could make anyone happy !
You were definitely one of the best people that have been in my life. Your the best friend that anyone could asked for and I’m lucky to have had you in my life. My last memory with you was the Friday before everything happen. I had talked you in to calling in.. you were mad because I was going down to my dads for the weekend. We spent all day together never knowing that all this was going to happen. Before you left you told me bye ma love you and I’m going to miss you and even called on my way to dads. Now I would give anything to have that day back. But thank goodness we have memories. There’s a lot of people who have had good times and made some great memories with you. I miss you and love you so much, I wish you were here everyday and there’s not a day that your aren’t on my mind !! Keep watching over us love. RIP Renee Alyse Anderson 12.11.85 - 4.19.08
Renee & Tk
We will never say Bye Bye
Name Game
I shall name you …….
I have a lot of near dear people who are expecting in the very near future. I was reminiscing the other day on what I was going to name Landon my son. I had about five names picked out. They all had the same middle name, but it was that first name that got me. I picked his middle name from my best friend’s last name. So long story short I gave my dad a list of five names and said “You choose”.
Landon derived from my brothers name Brandon Lee. So he chose Landon. His name means “The meadows and heart of a preacher”. I learned this a couple of months at church when we dedicated Landon to Christ.
So all we have talked about lately is having babies. Baby names have been a hot topic in our conversations.
So does a baby’s name set the person? That I do not know. It is a very hard decision that parents have to make.
My friend and her husband are expecting their second buddle of joy. We discussed the name Truck. She is not naming her son that, but she thought it was neat. I was a little stricken back at first, but then I said it again and it is a strong name. It has a nice ring to it!
I know everyone has their own opinions on names and the meanings of names. I personally think I lucked out to have such a sweet hearted little boy. Naming our little blessings is a task. They have to live with it the rest of their lives. I am proud of my dads choice. I think it was a good one.
Any one have any opinions on naming your children? Or share how you came up with your child’s name?
Blessed be your name
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What do a lemon & swimming have in common?
My little Landon loves him some Finding Nemo!
Well today I had a huge life lesson. When life gives you lemons, plant a lemon tree. I know that saying is wrong, but you will have lots more for lemonade.
At my current employment I have met so many amazing people. You would probably walk past them and think they were just ordinary people, but oh no they are not! They have laughter that soars for miles. Hearts that are bigger than the moon. I love the people I share my work space with! I catch myself chuckling at the table eating supper thinking about something clever they said.
Life is going to be changing in my little scheduled world. Not a lot just a little.
You can have everything mapped out and planned, but you will never know if it is going to change or not. There is never a way to tell. With the economy the way it is you have to stay on your toes and never get to comfortable with the way things are. I have a way of doing just that.
Well another curveball was thrown at me today. It was a bittersweet one at least.
Being a single mother means you have to fight every day! You have to fight to keep your job, your car, your insurance, your children’s things, your sanity. I guess what I am trying say you just have to fight for the right to survive.
I believe people really do not count their blessings enough these days. All I am going to say is I have realized I need to do so every day!
Sometimes life can get you down and I know it is easy. I certainly do at times. I have learned to keep my head up.
So if anyone is sorta in a funk today I wanted you to watch this. It is short and sweet but very cute! Have a great day everyone and remember plant a lemon tree or just keep swimming!!!!!
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JINGLE BELLS
Landon’s Wish List
1) Polaris 4 wheeler 2) Moon Shoes 3) Wii Rock band 4) Cars DVD/TV 5) Americas Funniest Video DVDs 6)……
Number 6? Number 1 broke me!!!
It is coming up on that magical season. Not only the singing of the carols, the smell of turkey, the lights, the candy canes, the itchy sensation from the artificial tree (if your are allergic), the chocolate, the gingerbread house, ug must I go on…..
You get that warm fuzzy feeling in your belly and melts your heart. It is like your soul wants to bust out!!!!!
I love it. The magic! The love in the air. The good deeds. The smell of mom baking, or dad making chocolate. The light weight feeling (I think that is my empty pockets).
But, what is this season really all about?
I feel it is about taking the time with your family. Counting your blessings. Helping others in need. So this Holiday Season I encourage you to do the same. Feel free to be whole hearted and caring. make some cookies. Sing out loud your favorite Christmas Song! Enjoy the smile on your child’s face when they see the Christmas Tree light up for the first time. (Mine just turns the jingle bell lights music way up).
Enjoy this funny video! It is sorta off topic, but funny.
Welcome to my Baby Mama world
So, how am I a Baby Mama?
I am 22 years old. I became a mother at the age of 19. I did not plan it that way but life has a way of throwing curve balls. I fell in love for the first time ever at 18 and thought I had the world planned out. I was spoiled! I love being Daddy’s little girl. I went out and lived life up.
Well, then I woke up one morning and rushed to HEB. I bought that dreaded stick! Ug. I can still remember that anxiety I felt when both lines came up pink as ever! So I ran downstairs to my mom and sat it down on the counter. She just looked at me and said “ I told you so!” Really comforting.
Anyways, long story short, Landon’s biological father and I did not work out. He signed his rights over this July. So officially I am a single mother! I am not at all regretful of having my child, and giving up my party hardy crazy lifestyle! I mean that whole heartedly, too.
I love working everyday to know that it goes to us. I loved every diaper change, every mawmaw that came out of his mouth. Yes he calls me MAWMAW ha ha. Everything about being a mother is rewarding whether single or not. I might not be the best, but I am right up there.
Does it get hard? Yes. HECK YES! Does seeing my single friends going out all the time really stink? Not so much anymore. I see it this way: I chose the deed, I accept the responsibilities. He did not ask to be brought up by just me, or not have a biological father.
But, I know one thing: He is being raised with three parents, and that is better than just one. He has his Opa, and his NiNi but, most important, he has ME! We are pretty normal. Life is all kinds of crazy! We have been through a lot and are on our way to many new adventures. We have a diaper-wearing dog named Rags, and a roof climbing cat named Rampage Jackson. (We are big UFC fans)
There are a lot of single mothers out there. We need a support group ha ha. We get the wrap, and the guys get to pack. So for us out there who stick it out every day, here is to us!!!! Age 20, 30, even 40 and up — being a mom is tough! We are raising the future generation!
How to balance the struggles of everyday life? It is a roller coaster, but it is one amazing thing to be a part of. From the first cry, mawmaw, or boo boo, it is truly unique. So my goal is to share my experience, open up awareness, and let women out there know that it is ok!
